Spiritual Healing

A friend of mines past away this past January. I went to her wake and was touched by the unconditional love she provided to her clients, family and friends. I sat with my friend Kimberly who I have known since 1967 and we re-connected with our friend Donna who we met in 1974. There are people whose presence is only for a season and you could never have another season with them and there are people who can float in and out and you realize the bond between you cannot ever be broken. Kim and Donna are of the latter. After the service Donna drove me back to my parents and we began to catch each other up on our lives since we last spoke. We both moved to NJ and we are taking care of our parents. We have come full circle in our relationships with our siblings and are facing the half-century mark. But one thing both Donna and I realize is we were never taught the true reality of life’s disappointments. Our experience of religion sold us as insignificant, our relationships with men were unloving and lonely, our families were incapable of spiritual guidance, we made our own way operating and surviving in the world. But what a toll our pasts had on us and now we begin the healing. Kim, Donna and I are taking stock of our future, redefining our pasts as we leave behind old thoughts of unworthiness, beliefs of beauty, forgiveness and what is truly sacred.
As women and especially African-American women our concept of sacred revolves around our families beliefs, the church and church teachings. We also allow the church to define for us what a woman’s place is, how a good woman acts, and even how we love. We are not taught that we are already sacred, holy and perfect. Yes, we as women are perfect, not original sin but God-consciousness perfection. Just imagine how your life would have been if you were raised knowing you were perfect and God loves you no matter what, forgiveness is not an option because you as you are loved by Gods Unconditional love, operating as a connection to this source you could do nothing wrong. Wrong is a human characteristic, God is perfection. No good nor bad, right or wrong, things are just is. When you hurt, are sad, are angry, depressed, any emotion that drains energy, you are consciousness out of alignment with Source. Allowing people who say unloving things to you and treat you in unloving ways you are out of alignment with the awareness of your perfection. When you see yourself in debt, overweight, alone, sick, consciously you “believe” you are these things, you are focusing as truth: debt, weight, company, wellness, not the real truth: You are so loved by Source and you are a perfect manifestation of Source.
I feel this moment in history is perfect for women to retreat into the Silence and reconnect to Source/God consciousness to define what our individual place is, what is our truth and shine it forth to everyone and everything, and to embrace love deeply and hold love in our hearts are sacred and holy first, then we can begin to see our outer lives as the same. We are to here to love and be loved.